Life always does this thing with me.
I am always trying to understand, like everything and some things I do but not as deeply as I’d like to. So it’s like I’m passively searching and connecting dots.
I guess some things I want to know are so valuable to me that life will bring them in the form of people and direct experiences.
Like I could never assimilate within my soul, willful ignorance and mental lethargy and barnyard thinking within information dense societies. Like how do moronic thoughts survive in a city?
Then I got a first hand view of what this looks like and how pervasive it really is. I took it as a personal challenge to learn and expand and then it became too much. I realized, people are literally raised without critical thinking and in a constant state of superficial distraction from depth and quality. And they eat it up. And for them it’s ok because that is all they ever see? But it’s not and that’s where my conundrum comes in. These folks constantly see different but choose the same, then complain about what they don’t have and can’t achieve – all while it’s right there in front of them. Like their victim game is super strong while their figure-out-that-shit never existed until somebody else brought it up.
I go to this one place pretty often to remind myself of how far I’ve come and there I see it so obviously now. People not flourishing and falsely content in their self imposed patterns. I say this because if they were content they wouldn’t constantly be looking for greener grass or deception fueled dopamine rushes. They wouldn’t look to control they would look to connect. They wouldn’t look to use they would look to be useful. But a good majority of these folks don’t do any of that and they are pseudo fine with this existence. So why aren’t they fine with the consequences?
It’s as if people don’t even have the ability to connect their choices to their outcomes. It couldn’t be them, has to be someone else. Isn’t this like basic 1+1? Who are the parents of these people that they didn’t teach them these foundational human things and to make it worse, they toss them out into society and inflict them on the rest of us. There are too many of them…
So I was humbled by finally seeing that it’s so very possible and common and that I just didn’t want to see it and how close it is to me. But now I see and wonder what the hell am I supposed to do with it and where are all the deep people at? Maybe they’ll be where I move next.