Depression is the need to get deep rest from the false self, lacking integrity, based on the expectations of others prioritized above one’s true desires. Shifting to this perspective immediately gives one direction towards improvement, which begins and ends with the only thing we control, our self.
So many times I’ve almost lost my self trying to demonstrate and convey the power of this journey to people. Most though, run away and fall into distraction, ultimately extending and making more difficult the period of deep rest to come. And it will come.
If we are honest, this is the daily state of many people – no real sense of self. Ego leaves left to the wind of simple-mindedness and trends, because they fear really being and thinking alone, where real growth happens.
They seek out little things and people, like shots of dopamine, progress faking but never epiphanies.
My season though, is different. No deep rest, just reflecting, refracting and acting. I look for nothing quick, fall for few tricks but sometimes watch as people try to play them, chuckling and maybe playing along if I feel the urge, which I don’t usually because stupid games generally have stupid prizes. My interests are only in personal authority and authenticity and teaching these to the few that matter. In other words, I live with wide eyes but keep things simple, kind and aligned, for me.